Sorry I was MIA yesterday. For some reason I've had trouble putting posts together lately. It's exciting to be in a new city and getting ready to move into a new home, but it's also been surprisingly hard.
I've always been the type of person who was constantly on the move since high school. Since the early spring when I graduated I've moved about every 6 months consistently. That's a
lot of moving in the past years, but I've always looked forward to it. Sure, it was often lonely and definitely a challenge to save any money at all, but I was having adventures. This move for some reason, although I'm so happily married and have what I was moving away from or back to for so long, has been one of the hardest so far. Maybe it's because I've done it so much already, maybe it's because I haven't found a job to replace the one I left in Tucson, maybe it's because I'm alone all day and a little {I'll admit} semi-jealous of the new amazing job opportunity my E. is able to have a huge part in. Maybe it's because I need to find my own, and since I can't pursue the things I really want right now I feel overwhelmed and discouraged by that.
Asheville is an amazing place and it's been so good to be with our friends we love and have missed so much. But I also unfortunately have the bad habit of getting swallowed up by the negative and letting its sticky claws drag me down into a dark place, which of course inevitably reflects on the words I write and the passion behind them. So if it's been a little dry lately, those are the reasons why.
It's so much better to focus on the positive --which in times that are hard {i.e. wedding planning, long distance relationships, family drama, financial stress, or in my case: moving} is a choice everyone has to make or not. When you're feeling weak it's harder, but so much more important to make the effort.
So, the lovely things in my life I'm blessed with:
Having a wonderful amazing caring, supportive, and very attractive husband.
Being young, in love, and newly married.
Being in a new artsy, eco friendly, outdoorsy, beautiful new place.
Getting to move into an awesome little home soon with space around it to breathe.
Having an amazing family, even if they're far away.
Having enough money to pay the bills and food to eat.
Having wonderful friends who want to share their home and are always there for us.
The fact that my little car, Jetta Jr., has not broken down in the last 6 months.
The support and community of our extended family and amazing friends spread all over the states and various countries.
That after years of struggle, I finally know that I can be healthy and feel good, and what I have to do to get there.
That I have my camera and this computer to create art.
That I have this blog and amazing people who read my words and enjoy sharing inspiration and encouragement with one another.
Now onto enjoying things, enough about this! Soon to come: what I come up with to fill all of my insane amounts of free time.
You're all the best :)